Monthly Archives: January 2015

Extreme Projector Exhaustion

Human Design Projector, Wanda Henke, Shares Her Story of Exhaustion and Recovery:

Hi everyone! I thought I would share my experience with extreme projector exhaustion. I’m sharing now because I want to encourage those of you who are also feeling this – it can get better if you allow yourself enough time to recuperate.

exhaustion revisedEven though I learned about Human Design about 5 years ago, I really did not understand the exhaustion piece for projectors until recently. I’m in my mid 60s, so I have been living like a Generator trying to be a Manifestor for a long time. I was extreme in my desire to outwork everyone else. Of course, I was just trying to get that recognition that we projectors need and want so badly. I retired from my latest career as a high school math teacher last July. I had not planned to retire at this time – I really could not afford to retire – but the situation at my school became untenable. I was teaching full-time at a public high school and part-time at my state’s online public high school. Once I retired, I could not work for the state at all for 6 months. I was really scared about the money piece, but by the time I actually stopped working, I was so exhausted I could hardly breathe. I had been exhausted for years, but I had kept pushing because I felt I had to.

I won’t go into details about my finances because I don’t want to remind myself of that negative energy, but basically it was a total collapse. The good news is that after 6 months of almost total rest, I finally feel like I will be able to “live” again. I have spent a lot of time – sometimes many days in a row – doing nothing but watching movies or old TV shows. Reading a book took too much energy. I fought this need to do absolutely nothing at first. I told myself a week was enough, then a month was enough. Finally after I got into this course (The Projector’s Survival Study Program) and listened to the recordings I gave in and decided not to worry about whether or not I looked “weak” to my relatives and not to worry about whether or not I would have enough money to meet the few obligations I had left. I allowed myself to do nothing – for days on end. I just listened to my spleen and did only those things I felt like doing.

Gradually, I began to do some reading and studying instead of TV. I had one thing that I did each week that took all day and was exhausting, but it was not something I could give up. At first, I would sit for 3 or 4 days and do nothing after this trip. The recovery time became less and less as the weeks went by. About 2 weeks ago, I decided to do some errands the day after my trip. I was very pleasantly (surprised) to find that I was not exhausted. I started to get some real inspiration and about 2 weeks ago, I had a vision of the perfect next venture for me. I had this idea when I originally decided to retire, but at that time it seemed like it would be too slow to make money and too much work to accomplish. Now it seems like it will just flow and I don’t feel any struggle. I know the money will come as it needs to. That part is already starting. When I contacted the online school to let them know that my 6-month exile was over, they were excited to have me back and asked me to teach 2 sections this semester. This is the perfect amount of work for a projector and will allow me to move up from survival while I start to put the pieces of my new venture in place. I’m doing my new venture as a projector – I will just do what I love to do and let those who want to partake of my wisdom come to me. Life is good and getting better!¬† ūüôā

If you are just starting to recover from Projector Exhaustion – it will get better if you just allow yourself time to recover!

Wanda HenkeWanda currently teaches high school math online with the North Carolina Virtual Public School. She retired last summer from teaching math face to face. Prior to teaching math, Wanda was an earthquake engineer. She and her husband developed a soil testing device used in earthquake engineering applications. Wanda found Human Design about 5 years ago, but did not really start trying to understand the implications of being a Projector until about 6 months ago. Wanda feels that Human Design is the key to successfully using all the wonderful self-improvement tools that we have today. Her first goal is to understand and love the unique person that she is.

January Projector Teleconference

Title: January 2015 Projector Teleconference
Time: Wednesday, January 21st at 7:00pm Eastern

 Donation-Tips 2 Optional Contribution: Participation in the teleconference is open to all Human Design Projectors free of charge. The opportunity to make a small monetary contribution is available as an option if you would like to exchange this type of energy to express gratitude and enhance the flow of prosperity in your life. Your optional contribution is greatly appreciated and goes help offset the cost of delivering these teleconferences. 

New Year – New Focus

Welcome to a brand new year!  If you are new to this site I invite you to look around and keep coming back.  If you have been around for a while you may have noticed some subtle changes taking place here.  You are also invited to keep coming back, because more changes are coming.

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I have been slowly shifting the focus of humandesignprojector.com¬†to be more about all the resources which are available for Projectors and less about my specific services. ¬†This does not mean that I’m opting out of working with my fellow Human Design Projectors. ¬†I’m just shifting things so that this site encompasses the wide array of guidance and support which is available through all Human Design venues. ¬†There is so much information out there for you and I want to make sure you know about it.

I am pursuing my own work in assisting all Human Design types through coaching, healing and consultations.  You can come over to my coaching website if you are interested in working with me specifically:  www.coachingwithsandy.com

Many blessings as always… and stay tuned for more!

A Major Epiphany from the Living Your Design Course

I just completed a special live Living Your Design course which was tailored to the specific issues of non-sacral beings (Projectors and Manifestors).  It was taught by Andrea Abay-Abay, a fellow Projector who is trained in Human Design training through Jovian Archive.  This course was extremely helpful for all of the Projectors who participated.  Some of us were well into our deconditioning process and some were new to deconditioning and Human Design.  All of us got immense value from the experience.  During the course I had a major epiphany which I will tell you about in a moment.Andrea AbayabayThe Living Your Design course is the introductory course for the Human Design System as it was originally taught by Ra Uru Hu.  It covers the basics of Human Design as it pertains to all design types.  So we learned about the strategies and decision making authorities of all Human Design types as well as the specifics of all of the energy centers.  What made this class unique is that Andrea made all of the information about other design types pertinent to Projectors.  Projectors are here for others, so it is crucial that we understand others.  It is also crucial that we understand how to manage ourselves in the midst of others.  This includes being aware of how we are susceptible to the conditioning of other energy types.  

While the information was very familiar to me (I am a certified Human Design Specialist through Human Design for Everyone)¬†I had a major epiphany during the course¬†which put me on a whole new level of empowerment.¬†¬†I had been going through some family stress and conflict which reached its breaking point during the course. ¬†At the point where I felt that I couldn’t endure it any more¬†I suddenly realized that what was going on had nothing to do with me. ¬†The awareness of how¬†I was absorbing and amplifying the conditioning field in my environment¬†catapulted me into¬†a new empowered stance in my relationships with the two Generators in my household. ¬†I gained the clarity I needed to assertively refuse¬†to take on the discord between my family members. ¬†The effect was a palpable shift between¬†these two Generators who were in conflict in my household.¬† I’m not sure if they actually resolved their conflict, and quite frankly I don’t care. ¬†But the energy changed in the house when I changed how I deal with them. ¬†My¬†experience of them shifted in a dramatically positive way.

Projectors are here to guide the Generators in their lives (when invited), and I was reminded ofmanvsman my¬†very important role in my Generators’ lives. ¬†This did not mean that I had to be their referee or their conflict resolution specialist (as I had attempted to be in the past.) ¬†It meant that I had to be aware of the conditioning that they receive from each other as well as the conditioning that I receive from them, and manage myself by recognizing that¬†what is theirs is not mine. ¬†The Living Your Design Course helped me to do that by the way that we spent time on each of the types and the conditioning in all of the centers. ¬†Something just clicked and I’m glad it did.

Andrea will not be doing this live course for a while, but she does do a private Living Your Design program for people who want individual attention.  And she does also plan to make the live course she just did into an audio download.  I will be sure to let you know more about her upcoming offerings as they become available.