Wait… Watch … Enjoy the energy … Not everyone is here for you … Stay open … You’ll see…
This is the inner guidance I got when I participated as a provider at a community psychic faire. I was invited to become part of a local metaphysical community a while back to offer my Human Design and Life Coaching services. And while I know that my presence holds a valuable space within the community, the money for my work has yet to be steady. So for now I am planting the seeds of Human Design and practicing my Projector strategy of waiting.
At events like this psychic faire I tend to feel rudderless. Unless one of the Manifestors in the group introduces me or promotes me I don’t seem to get seen or recognized all that much. I’ve come to accept it because my observations have shown me that I’m only there for certain people… and when we find each other it’s like magic. There is a recognition, a knowing and that person sticks with me, follows me and grows with me over time. And eventually this causes my business to reach a critical mass where word of mouth kicks in and the income becomes automatic. It’s a slow trajectory which builds a solid and sustainable foundation. Now that I know about my strategy I don’t stress too much about the process.
So at this particular psychic faire I was aware of my rudderlessness and intentionally set out to feel good and enjoy myself while waiting. I didn’t make much money. In fact I only saw 3 people the first day and none the second day. To say that my income was spotty is an understatement. In the past I would have tried to push my way into people’s lives to prove to them that they “need” Human Design. But that’s not what it’s all about for me these days. So since I was really enjoying connecting with the other providers and basking in the energy I relaxed and consciously practiced waiting and watching. What transpired showed me how much I am supported in ways that are so much deeper and meaningful than just money.
The atmosphere was light and joyful. I started out hopeful that my days would be filled with clients. I was open and ready to change the world by turning people on to their Human Design strategy… showing them who they really are etc etc etc blah blah blah…..
As I mentioned, I got three clients the whole weekend! Now in earlier days I would have felt like a failure and the whole weekend would have been seen as a disaster. I might have even gotten indignant and declared that these things are a waste of time… or I would have strong-armed my way into trying to make more money. In the end I most likely would have gone home bitter and discouraged… and this would have flung me into days or even months of self-doubt and insecurity. But this time it was different. I just stayed open to being my Projector self.
The experience became part of my experiment. And what I was shown was how prosperity really comes to me when I align with myself and let “what is” be.
On the second day one of the other providers came to me with a gift. She had no explanation for why she was giving me her precious ruby and black pearl pendant … except that the hairs were standing up on her arms and she knew I must have it. I was touched in the moment .. moved to tears by her generosity.
As I sat in the reading room the rest of the day, watching clients come in and out to see all the other practitioners but me, I wore that pendant with a smile on my face and in my heart. I sat there waiting and listening to my guidance to stay open and be present. In my rudderlessness I floated through conversations with some of the other providers and some of the customers and potential clients. There was a knowing and acceptance that my people were not in that room that day.
As much as I was ok with it I was still curious as to why the weekend unfolded the way it did. At the end of the day I went out front to say goodbye and there in the room were some of my clients! They all greeting me with love. The magic between us was palpable. And I was told by each of them how much they appreciate me and how they were planning to get a full session with me rather than the short ones which were offered at the psychic faire. I also discovered that others were interested in getting longer sessions with me during the week as well. So that was confirmation that the money is coming… in bigger ways than I expected. That was really cool… but there’s more …
I still wondered about that gift … that beautiful pendant which was given to me by a dear soul who was following her guidance without even knowing why she needed to give it to me or why I needed to receive it. Later that evening it hit me. That pendant was indeed a direct gift from the universe… the unseen forces who embrace and support me with their unconditional love. The message went straight to my heart. … and I was so crystal clear that I teared up all over again at how profoundly rich I truly am. If I had made just the money, I would have allocated some for my business, some for my household and a little tiny bit would have been mine to spend on me. This gift was 100% totally mine, and it was given to me in a way that I couldn’t split up, share or divvy up to anyone else. At that moment I realized my preciousness. I understood how well supported I am. And I was reminded that just because “I am”, I am graced and adorned with all that I truly need to be me… That is enough. I am enough. And I prosper in all kinds of ways.