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When an Invitation Ends – The Beloved Trickster

Last week my invitation to be on a real estate team ended. I have been considering what to tell you about this experience which would be useful to your own journey. After much reflection, it seems that the place to start is to tell you that the end of an invitation is not the end of the world. When an invitation begins well, it can also end well.

When an invitation begins well it can also end well.

If you have ever correctly entered into an invitation and were left scratching your head when it ended, please don’t waste your time (and precious energy) wondering what happened. And by all means, don’t blame yourself or the others involved.

As I was processing this with a very wise Projector (thank you Saeri!), she mentioned the trickster energy that can come into play when you enter into a correct invitation. Sometimes when you go in, it looks like you’re going in to get a certain thing. When you get there it turns out you’re there for an entirely different purpose. If you’re wise to the trickster energy, you can stay unattached to the outcome, and it makes for a much smoother ride.

In this case, the trickster dangled the promise of making a good income (in a way that is correct for me) in front of my face. It looked like that was where I was going. Although my splenic authority resonated deeply with the invitation, I suspected that there was more to the purpose of the experience. I felt it. However my mind would’ve been reluctant to take the bait (and would’ve tortured me with its monkey mind gyrations), had it not been set up in a way that met its expectations. The trickster comes to trick the mind into going along for the ride.

Had the trickster not come to draw us (me and my team mates) into this experience, I would’ve retreated back to my home office, still clueless about a few things that I dearly needed to experience. I would not have received the wisdom that my 3/5 profile is destined to discover. And I would not have some crucial pieces of clarity to share with you and others.

So after a wild year-long ride through the world of the mainstream, what did I get from this experience? There is so much richness here that I hardly know what to share now and what to save for later, so that you are not overwhelmed. I got three main things from my adventure in the real estate world that I would not have gotten by sitting behind my desk at home.

  1. I got a window into the the mainstream generator work world, and came to a deep understanding of what sacral beings must do to have satisfaction in their career. Their systems are challenging, complicated and labor intensive…. and they like it that way!
  2. With regard to sacral beings with a lot of individual circuitry (as my team mates were), I developed a deep appreciation for the struggles that they face. The system is designed for conformity and is stacked in the favor of success through homogenized practices. I watched them struggle between what is truly correct for their individuality and the tried and true practices of the business tribe. In the end what worked for their individuality did not work to sustain the team.
  3. Most importantly I gained a powerful new confidence in the magic of who I am. I felt first hand, what works (and doesn’t work) when it comes to connecting with others. I discovered that the people whom I’m here for already recognize and trust me. They will come to me, regardless of what I do or how I do it. I had insight about this prior to the real estate adventure, but now I that I’ve seen it in action, it’s imbedded in my cells.

So dear Projector, this has been the most liberating and empowering journey yet! Thanks for following my adventures. There is more to come for sure. In the meantime I am returning to my desk in my home office (and to my orchard, and also to some minor new invitations) to gather everything I have learned and channel it back into serving you.

Human Design G Authority

On our last Human Design Projector teleconference there were some questions about the G or Self Authority. When you have a G authority the correctness of your decision can be heard powerfully in your voice.  Here is a video from John Martin which explains G authority very clearly.

Discovering what authority really feels like…

Another great post from by Ethan Emerson  www.facebook.com/poeticrhythms

Originally Written April 7, 2012

Pencil with "Y" Circled For YesThe more I still my mind and create spaces for myself where I am thoughtless, the more in touch with my body I become. In combination with using my inner authority to make decisions (Solar Plex) I have been experiencing something very interesting… (I have no conscious access to my emotions, btw).

What I’ve found is that when I am presented with a situation to make a decision on, when my mind is still (meaning I am not mentally processing the decision) I either get hit with an immediate physical feeling that to me is NO or an immediate physical feeling that to me is a YES. Or, I get nothing at all. And I’ve found that getting nothing is what happens when I consciously try to access how I feel. You know, consciously forcing myself to think about the decision maybe by looking at a list of “decisions I need to make” or what have you. The only times I get a YES or a NO are when the subject pops into my mind at random times – unplanned, it just happens. In the shower, while I’m eating dinner, in the middle of a movie. Randomly.

The “YES” feeling feels like an enhanced, fast-paced, intense surge of my own aura for a brief moment flowing in it’s natural state almost like it’s a fast, intense “pulse” of my natural auric energy.

The “NO” feeling feels like a momentary block in the flow of my aura. Like for that moment, everything shrinks into the middle in resistance and it pulses the same physical sensation through my body from head to toe that I feel when I am in a situation where I feel fear.

What happens is that I take, say, a week or two to make a decision. Each day I randomly check-in with myself on the decision to be made. And each time I check in, I get one of the two feelings described above. When I randomly think of the decisions to be made (they just end up in my thoughts) I get hit with the feeling more intensely than if I were to just purposely try to put the decision in my awareness to feel the feeling. Perhaps that’s due to not having conscious access to my emotions. I’m not sure.

But over the last month I’ve been allowing myself to think about my decisions more and more from a place of non-judgment where the thought just enters my mind at random times and I get the intense feeling. But now I’m able to really distinguish what that feeling is – and I’m blown away by the feeling of my own aura flowing at a momentarily increased intensity literally like a PULSE of energy – and I’m just starting to discover this process in a new way.

Previously I would just “test the air” so to speak about how I felt about decisions. But that never worked. I didn’t know how I felt. And it wasn’t until I realized I don’t have conscious access to my emotions did I realize why I wasn’t able to access my inner authority by just choosing to think about my decision.

I’ve found that sitting out in the sun with no purpose helps me in decision making. I just sit outside, soak up the sun, meditate on nothing and it hits me – literally. Maybe this is key for me to allow my decisions to process unconsciously?

And so the journey continues… one day at a time…!

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