This is a personal share about an epiphany I had over the weekend. Human Design Projectors are here to realize success by being recognized and invited by the right people into the things which allow them to use their gifts and talents to manage, guide and direct. That’s not the epiphany. As I’m sure that if you have been studying your design for a while, you already know this. Success and the recognition / invitations which follow, usually come from mastering a system. That’s not the epiphany either. You, like me, may have studied and mastered a lot of systems. But if something is missing for you, something that makes you feel like you’re not in a place where you fully live in the success you have achieved, this epiphany may make things clearer for you.
Here’s my epiphany:
It’s important as a Projector to have formal recognition for the system you master. Maybe if you have a lot of individual circuitry in your chart this is not so important (I’m not sure). But I realized this weekend, while sharing Human Design at a ministerial conference where a few ministers were being awarded Doctoral degrees, that it’s not enough for me to master what I study. I actually need to be formally recognized for it among people who truly see me…. a room full of flesh and bones people who are there to celebrate my success and really get what it means to have achieved the accomplishment. Maybe you already know this and have done this. For me it was a deep recognition of myself and what I know at the core of my heart to be the missing piece to feeling ultimately successful.
For years I denied that need… perhaps not even recognizing that it was a need … because I kept trying to believe that the formal recognition and celebration aren’t important. And meanwhile I moved from thing to thing, mastering to a certain degree this technique and that approach, but never getting to where I felt I arrived. It’s the story of the gate 48 … studying everything under the sun because you don’t feel you know enough. The truth is I have felt that I have known enough for quite a while actually, but a persistent sense of incompletion has nagged me ever since I quit a Masters Degree program midstream 30 years ago to lick the wounds of a broken heart. All of these years I have managed to realize some success through studies that allowed me to work around not having that one piece of paper that says “Yes I do know what I know and I mastered it”. As time went on, the formalized programs which would give me the opportunity to complete that degree stopped speaking to me. And that’s where I picked up the belief that perhaps the recognition wasn’t important.
Then as I sat in that room with those Doctoral candidates over the weekend, the understanding came. I am a master already, but not one that formalized academic study would recognize without me jumping through a whole bunch of other hoops and overworking myself to learn things I don’t care about to prove what I already know. This is not something my deconditioning undefined will center feels like doing. But still the need for formal recognition exists. When I attended the Doctoral confirmation ceremony I finally realized that my perspective has been too limited. It’s not that I don’t need the recognition for my mastery, it’s just that the mastery has gone beyond the limits of what I think of as formal recognition. It’s not that I need to complete a degree… or any degree. It’s that I need to complete the degree that is reflective of the heights I am achieving. I need to be formally celebrated and supported by my people in a way where my gate 48 can’t deny that I’m ready, I know and I’m prepared.
The weekend was filled with recognition like I had never experienced before. One person even thought that she had ordained me into the ministry last year. I met people whom I know I was destined to meet. And I made connections at a deep heart level with people I already know and people I had just met. And then I remembered the invitation I received over a year ago to become a part of this organization. At the time, my defined head and ajna rejected it because I am already an ordained minister. Why would I need another accolade like that? And now I know that I was not being invited to achieve the accolade but to receive the recognition and support from the right group of people, and to allow myself to be fully acknowledged for the mastery I am attaining.
When I shared with some friends that I am pondering the possibility of getting a Doctorate of Divinity, my left brained finally accepted my need for this type of recognition. … the right brain was already convinced through the feel of the experience … An advanced degree automatically opens doors that just don’t exist before you get the degree. For a Projector whose success depends on having doors opened for them, it’s only logical to pursue something that would open those doors.
If you’re waiting on doors to open, it may be that you need to pursue your passions in a way that allow you to receive formal recognition from your people. It may be that you need to achieve new heights, not in what you know, but in how you are recognized for who you are. It could take some time to line this up from the inside… to emerge into your true self and to be seen and invited. It’s my hope that by sharing this, it won’t take you as long as it took me to accept how important recognition is to your success.
You’re invited to share your experiences with success and formal recognition. Do you feel you need it in order to succeed?