Here is a great video from Zeno (a Human Design Projector) about how to recognize when you’re being conditioned. She starts by talking about how to recognize conditioning in the heart / will center and makes some suggestions about how to deal with it. Zeno brings up a very valuable question in this video.
“How are you reacting to being conditioned?”
Conditioning is a fact of life. We are all conditioned, either by others or by the transits, all the time. Awareness of how you are reacting to being conditioned is a key to successfully dealing with the Projector not-self theme of bitterness. Mismanaged conditioning is a huge source of pain for all Human Design types. And for Projectors it can fuel bitterness to the point where it throws you out of balance with your true nature.
In the Bitterness to Joy Program you get to explore how you are reacting to conditioning in your life (past and present) in order to understand how it is fueling your bitterness.
I just completed a special live Living Your Design course which was tailored to the specific issues of non-sacral beings (Projectors and Manifestors). It was taught by Andrea Abay-Abay, a fellow Projector who is trained in Human Design training through Jovian Archive. This course was extremely helpful for all of the Projectors who participated. Some of us were well into our deconditioning process and some were new to deconditioning and Human Design. All of us got immense value from the experience. During the course I had a major epiphany which I will tell you about in a moment.The Living Your Design course is the introductory course for the Human Design System as it was originally taught by Ra Uru Hu. It covers the basics of Human Design as it pertains to all design types. So we learned about the strategies and decision making authorities of all Human Design types as well as the specifics of all of the energy centers. What made this class unique is that Andrea made all of the information about other design types pertinent to Projectors. Projectors are here for others, so it is crucial that we understand others. It is also crucial that we understand how to manage ourselves in the midst of others. This includes being aware of how we are susceptible to the conditioning of other energy types.
While the information was very familiar to me (I am a certified Human Design Specialist through Human Design for Everyone) I had a major epiphany during the course which put me on a whole new level of empowerment. I had been going through some family stress and conflict which reached its breaking point during the course. At the point where I felt that I couldn’t endure it any more I suddenly realized that what was going on had nothing to do with me. The awareness of how I was absorbing and amplifying the conditioning field in my environment catapulted me into a new empowered stance in my relationships with the two Generators in my household. I gained the clarity I needed to assertively refuse to take on the discord between my family members. The effect was a palpable shift between these two Generators who were in conflict in my household. I’m not sure if they actually resolved their conflict, and quite frankly I don’t care. But the energy changed in the house when I changed how I deal with them. My experience of them shifted in a dramatically positive way.
Projectors are here to guide the Generators in their lives (when invited), and I was reminded of my very important role in my Generators’ lives. This did not mean that I had to be their referee or their conflict resolution specialist (as I had attempted to be in the past.) It meant that I had to be aware of the conditioning that they receive from each other as well as the conditioning that I receive from them, and manage myself by recognizing that what is theirs is not mine. The Living Your Design Course helped me to do that by the way that we spent time on each of the types and the conditioning in all of the centers. Something just clicked and I’m glad it did.
Andrea will not be doing this live course for a while, but she does do a private Living Your Design program for people who want individual attention. And she does also plan to make the live course she just did into an audio download. I will be sure to let you know more about her upcoming offerings as they become available.
The holiday season with its increased social activities is a perfect time to experiment with Human Design. If you have been learning about yourself as a Human Design Projector for a while, you know how important it is discover how you feel by yourself vs how you feel among others … especially if you have a lot of open energy centers.
My Generator husband and I have been enjoying a visit from my Manifesting Generator stepdaughter (who normally lives with her mother). At the same time my Manifesting Generator stepson with three motors to his throat and a bad case of Senior Year of High School Angst, is visiting his mother for the holidays. This is not our usual way to spend the holidays. We usually have both of the kids or not. But this different arrangement has resulted in great observations about my Projector energy and my relationships with the sacral beings in my life.
Here 2 things I have discovered:
The stress and discord in my house the past few months was not mine. Hallelujah! It was the result of the conditioning that my husband (who is a Generator with 6 open centers) and I (a Projector with 5 open centers) were receiving from his very defined son. I’m not placing blame, just observing. As soon as he left we both relaxed.
Sacral energy can be delicious when you’re in the right conditioning field. My husband and I both share some delightful electromagnetic connections with my stepdaughter. Her presence activates us in ways that uplift us (especially me) and allow me to ride along under the influence of the sustainable energy to have fun.
Early Christmas on the Winter Solstice
Projectors are designed to be conditioned by others. It’s how we know the other so that we can guide them when invited. I believe we’re also here to enjoy our lives and perhaps even balance the planetary vibrations with that joy we embody (just a personal theory). It’s all about the right people.. the right sacral energy … the best feeling connections which make the difference between a Projector who struggles and a Projector who thrives.
You may have already observed the differences in your energy field when you are around your Generator loved ones. If not, this time of year will give you ample opportunity!
The Manifesting Generator unwrapping gifts while trying not to draw attention to herself.
Perhaps the most important thing to remember about your observations is the necessity to spend time alone. This allows you to feel your personal energy independent of others. And when you step into the influence of another’s auric field, the difference will be unmistakable.